emo screamo emo poser emo punk emo pussy emo ro-co emo skank emo lite emo yada yada ‘n’ yada…..

Excuse me,may I ask? What’s “emo” stand for? Do you know? I don’t know any shit about it. I’m confused actually. Look what I’ve found; At first I thought it was a short form for emotional. Fair enuff, cos it is.. right? Don’t you think so? Secondly, I thought, u know.. something that are stereotyped with teens who wear tight jeans, bold eyeliner, black nail polish, long dyed straight hair, horn-rimmed glasses or pierced. That’s the fashion nowadays. You can see it everywhere on the street or on the net (friendster/myspace). They are indeed introvert, basically emotional sensitive…(wondering- am I right?) I do polish my nails black, wear horn-rimmed glass, pierced, does this consider that I am an emo too?

(This is the comment that I found on the net)

Probably (Plaza Catlunya is mine!) is right. That kind of attire doesn’t define a person whether or not he/she is an emo. Out there, there are bunches of teen who dress like this. Most likely it is stylish and tasteful.

Chup! Emo to be likely hurt themselves? Self-harming?

Guess what, Hannah Bond, the 13 yrs old girl who committed suicide after joining the “Black Parade” a.k.a self-harming “emo” cult. This is so sickening!! Can you believe that killing yourself is a glamorous thing?? For god sake!

It is believe that the trend coming from the sad theme and emotional lyric from rock genre kind of music. No doubt that she was obsessed with My Chemical Romance songs.

The lead singer of MCR, Gerard Way claimed that

(Really?). Another band, Panic at the disco saying that

Unfortunately these two bands are classified as emo. Hmm…

Anyway there are many stereotypes to what exactly an emo is.

SO WHAT THE HECK IS *EMO* ANYWAY?

Emo : emotive hardcore, an attitude.

Emo Trend: fashion from emocore.

Emocore: hardcore + punk in the late 80’s

Emo kids : listen to emocore, sensitive, shy, introverted, quiet, express feeling by writing poem.

Emo poetry : combination of emotional tone, nonexistent rhyme, dark depressing adjectives, concern mutability of time and love.

Emo screamo : Emo music. Not screaming kind of music. Go and listen to Loma Prieta, Portraits of Past, Anomie, & La Quiete, find out yourself. Screamo is not popular.

P/S: *EVEN THO’ YOU ARE EMO, DOESN’T MEAN YOU NEED TO HURT YOURSELF JUST B’COS NO ONE UNDERSTAND YOUR WORLD.*

IF YOU ARE EMO, PLEASE BE THE REAL EMO, SELF-HARMING IS NOT PART OF EMO.

-thank you-

Siapa bikin orang yang introvert ada batasan ye?

18 years ago, I was a child who likes to draw stick people, house, sun, etc
(you know, like what you see kindergarten kid’s drawings) and
I color it with multicolour stencil color pencil which my dad bought for me.
I love the colors, just like rainbow it looks very jolly.
Since then, I always love to draw in class.
Guru P.S (x play station, = pendidikan seni)
always give me A or A+ star for my drawings.
(woot! Muka kembang giler! If I got wings, sure terbang tak turun2 nih..)
In fact I have my dad’s gene, my dad draw too (last time before I was born),
No, he is not a draftsman.
I’ve seen his art work. His drawings are good! I mean excellent!
Probably you should see his writing, very neat, tidy and
got the English-ness + robot-ness writing. (cayalah!)
Well my dad’s genes got into me, finally she grow to be an artsy-fartsy daughter.
I used to win the Chinese writing and Chinese calligraphy competition when I was in primary
school. (Don’t believe? Believe it) and just so you know why I speak mandarin.
I have more interest on art subject compare to other subjects.
A lot of people think that art is just a piece of shit
and it can’t help you much in the future. (My mama is one of them)
I do have difficulty when it comes to choosing my own path (after SPM)
I have two choices in my mind on what courses should I go for.
Either Multimedia or Graphic Design…
After discuss with parents, it end with no conclusion.
Mama says graphic design won’t do any good in the future. (hipokrit kan?)
Mama says multimedia is okay but u got to stay in the hostel, it is not safe for you. (alasan!)
My dad indeed agreed with mama.
(oh! my typical mama)
So GUESS what course I end up with??!
MASS COMM!
I know many of you (in ur heart) gonna murmur that
(ha! Ye ke? Can she do it? A person like her would dare to study mass comm?!)
YES, Me & Mass Comm (lucu?)
(curse me or underestimate me if you want)
I know I’m introvert, forlorn, not loquacious. So what?
That’s not gonna hold me down.
Even tho’ I’m introvert, deep down beneath my skin I’m loud.
Besides ART, I love TV / visual. (I can spend my 24/7 on TV or Internet)
Mass Comm. got the element that I am into it.
Mass comm. is created by people to send the transmitting device to large amount of audience.
What is this device?
Mass media is the answer!
What kind of mass media would you think of? What’s on your mind?
TV? Radio? Newspaper? Internet? Magazine?
Yes, You are right! Mass media covered all the above and other medium.
Sound fun and interesting you think? Yes indeed and it is not as easy as you thought it was.
The process of the getting more onto it is no fun, trust me.
Nobody like exam, assignment, group work ...etc
(ok, maybe some of the assignments are amusing, I agree)
Nevertheless, mass comm. is a good course for you to
practise your public speaking, your skill to approach people,
your knowledge to understand people need and wants and lots more.
Anyhow don’t take too lightly to introvert human being,
you never know if one day they will turn out to be a star!
Take a look at this famous people like Albert Einstein, Ingmar Bergman,
PJ Harvey, Mohandas K. Gandhi, Abraham Lincoln, Audrey Hepburn,
Leonardo da Vinci, Vincent van Gogh, Emily Dickinson and etc.
They all are bunch of introvert people who made for
themselves an abiding place in the history of fame.

p/s: It is important to believe in yourself! Dare to believe.

A Day footsteps @homeland

Ooops! I did it again! I went to Kuantan again this time! My hometown is a place that I will never get bored with. My friends said I’m crazy. Oh! what!everrr.. They can’t stop me from coming back as many times as I want. I miss my ex-house, I miss my ex-schools (walaupun kena bangun pagi2 travel 1jam+ ulang alik), my ex-teachers (walaupun garang tapi pandai mengajar), my hometown food especially mee curry (dekat station taxi lama), nasi minyak, keropok (kantin punye keropok mmg meletup), mee jalong (kat depan my sek ren mmg best giler mkn hari2 pon tak bosan) & kuih-muih time raya puasa mmg top, my sch bas no.39 (top 1 in my list), beach (most wanted in my list), my relatives and lastly ofcos my friends yg amat kusayangi!

This time I brought my aficionado with me. We are on 1day budget trip. He doesn’t feel comfy when in the bus, pity him.. (wtd, petrol hike up to rm2.70(thx to Pak Lah), so we decided to take bus or air asia (next time)..cheaper maa.. keke). We reach Ktn right about afternoon. We started to complain the pain that we suffer while sitting on the bus. We were so hungry and I brought him to the pasar next to Ocean lama. They have variety kind of nice food there. (from muruku to pisang goreng, from pisang goreng to yau char kuai, u name it). We end up eating malay food cos I didn’t see gerai asam laksa open that day. After makan2, he said he wanted to go to TC. So we take a taxi cos we are so darn lazy to take a bus. Maklum la, lepas makan our body dah jadi berat tulang(lazy).

After 10mins ride, finally we reach TC beach. He and I walk towards the sea, and secara tidak langsung, I saw a gang of photographr sitting at the side walk holding their “meriam” (says my aficionado). I was like (Alert! Alert! Competitors on board, competitors on board, what should I do?) I did pop up with a question: Why there are so many people using dslr nowadays? (affordable? Looks cool? Peer pressure? Or is it cos of the medium? (youth these days are into photography + dslr). It is so common, I can see it everywhere I go from analog cam, compact cam to a single lense reflex cam. (Not to fire up a battle between the C & N) At that time, I felt myself so exclusive cos I was the one holding the N and they were looking at me.. hehehe..But no doubt that their gears are good.. so I was like pretending that I didn’t see them (not to be perasan or what but it’s true).

And I slowly toddle to the stairs, we sit. I take out my gears and start to shoot; I don’t want to lose any chance to shoot the moment while I was there. My aficionado wants to shoot too so I pass it to him. (he had the talent when it comes to cars or girls photo shoot, oh well.. guys..u noe). Later, we walk to the other side, there is a little flea markets going on the side walk. So we headed there, and there’s 1 booth that caught my attention. It was the booth that selling self-carved name key chains. I was thinking of carving my name on it since my name is not a common name that you can find it in MPH, or Central Market. (It is nothing special, just that I just want to have my own name key chain..hehe). & this man besides me (my aficionado) whispers: “Why not we joint our name together become one name” (since he lost his skateboard key chain that he kept for 6-7years during our journey to ktn, so he come up with this idea just to replace the lost of his key chain)…cheh!.. I was ponder (ookay, y not.. plus 1 alphabet cost rm1, we have 10 alphabet =rm10, oklaa not tat expensive) I replied: “Ok, we will have both our name on the key chain. So the key chain maker passes me a small note book to write the name that I want to carve. While this maker doing his job, I saw he put two loves above our name. (I was like shit! Oh no, this ain’t good, it is so obvious! U noe, is like hmmm… not cun) What to do, dah buat.. tak kan nak marah org tu kot? Tak baik…

Ok done with that story, I, actually have a reunion with few friends of mine which I haven’t see them for quite some time. Finally I’m being able to meet them, I’m so excited about it. One of us were married and got babies, the elder one 11 months and the younger one still in her mama perut. Last but not least, we did take pictures like we use to do like last time in primary school time. We chatted about our life, education, to cars. And I again sympathy my aficionado cos’ he’s bored he doesn’t un what we talked (we speak mandarin)..kekeke.. he’s “banana” (even tho’ he doesn’t look like one). Nevertheless I thank him for being there for me, teman me the whole time..

(actually I got a long story to tell kinda lazy to type it here anymore..hee)

xoxo, wenna

Rings + Gun + anaesthetic = ?

I got my 1^ST piercing on the ears since I was small (6-7 yrs old I think). When I was 15 yrs old I got my 2^nd ears pierced. It is pretty common amongst the girls to get their ears pierced. During 17 yrs old I had my nose pierced, just like the ind women. At the age of 18, finally I had my eyebrow pierced. So total I have 6 piercing, (is normal, not a big thing). Do you think I’m into piercing? I don’t think myself is pretty much into piercing. It is just a mixture of teenage rebelliousness back then. People have different kind of view about face/body piercing. Some says it looks cool, some says its revolting, some says it look stupid, and some even says it is a disaster. This is due to the old-fashion / traditional thinking, that once you had your face pierced/ perforate eventually can cause scar to your face. It able to change your luck of your life become worse and yada..yada..yada. I don’t believe in that. It is just a body art. Well, year later I had my eyebrow pierced. Friends were kinda surprise when I told them I want to pierce my eyebrow and they were very supportive :). Once I got my eyebrow pierced, I look at the mirror, I look odd, it does change how I look like, (sort of like good girl gone bad kinda look) not used to my new look. Ok, since I pierced my eyebrow (not to brag), whenever I go people will tend to look at my eyebrow and they give me some kind of “look”. That Is either stare at me or fierce at me. To kids, I’m a monster; to adults, I’m either gangster or stylish. My parents are cool with it (sporting). At first, I thought I will get tick off from my mama or papa but only three words that came out from their mouth “Siao ar lu”. ..ke..ke..ke.. I know that there are some parents would not permit their kids to have pierce even on the ears. (Too bad) Now even my lil “kawaii” sis pierced her lip at the age of 16. (bravo.. bravo.. to her). I’m not encouraging people to pierce, what I wanted to say (my message) is that do whatever you want, take the risk, don’t make it a limitation for you to get what you want.

xo

OH NO! I'm been HIJACKED!

by my Hormonal Arousal (m..mm…no good)

Ok I admit I have a bad temper and I terrorized quickly (not yet to become a terrorist). That’s because I’m flooded with hormones, u fools :p. My mama says I’m too manja that’s why I behave like that. Ye ke? I totally disagree with it. Ala, sometimes I get angry pon because of those people do Jahat to me. I don’t know how to knob my anger and each time it ended badly. Sorry for that. I’m a person who hardly gets over negative feelings slower than others. (what can I say, this world is cruel, don’t you think?) I am sensitive and react strongly to some events, it depends, and I tend to grudges longer. (sound dangerous huh?) I guess that’s because I have a dire times of yore. I hope from now on I can get over it and learn how to regulate my emotions. Have you heard of EQ? (Emotional Quotient). It is an emotional management of one’s self. As far as I remembered, I have done the presentation about this EQ. EQ is more important than IQ. If you can handle your EQ well, you will have a flourishing life, trust me. (go google up if you wish to know more).

Here are some tips to share. (SHARING = CARING)
1) Work on your brain cos’ brain is elastic.
2) Hit a pillow! Punch a bag not living things for god sake!
3) Go to places where you can gain control, I’m not telling u to suicide…’duh’
4) Put out soothing things such as music (music ROCK me good ..heh)
5) Leave the scene, walk away. It’s always safer even tho’ it sound like a loser .. heh
6) Say something Positive! Such as I LOVE YOU.. :P
7) Stop and BREATHE! Let the oxygen suck into the brain, it is a fastest ways to relax.
8) Imagine a calm place! BEACH! I LIKE BEACH!
P/S: Life is too short to be confused, fretful, depressed or angry much of the time. Or to be caught in senseless arguments with loved ones. You Me and Anyone in this world deserve to have a happy life. IF YOU CAN’T FIGURE HOW TO BE HAPPY ON UR OWN, GO N GET HELP!